feelings

if i die tonight
i want to see you smile
your face
your eyes
show me the moment
when you were high
cause i can not remember anyone
who made you happy by cry

i can just remember your face in pain
such a breathtaking mess
you just being in the bed
white was everywhere
and i felt really bad
no flowers, no pets
thirsdy but not allowed to drink
saying "i'm fine"
that's what i should think

so many memories
so many smiles
i felt alive everytime seeing you're fine

i wish i had all the time
to love you much more than i could
so much you deserve
time of the world to find out
that you are the best of mine's

i remember the pain of my deepest heart
no breath no proud
i give you everrything
take it and run

with every pain
i die once more
walking in cold and rain
placing my face in front of storm